Different Personalities.

Many successful women today admit to having different personalities to better accommodate their career and personal life. Onika, or the better known Nicki Manaj is a fictional, yet bad ass character, and Beyonce with her "Sasha Fierce" for on stage performances. These women, are bad ass, professional and are madly respected, which leads me to believe there take on a split personality isn't a bad idea.

Early on in this fall semester, I struggled to work, be a full time student, and be a girlfriend/ best friend to my nearest and dearest. I felt spread too thin and decided to cut something out. I quit my job and took one class off my schedule to reduce my workload. I wasn't happy with my decision. I wanted so bad to accomplish everything, and do them all well. I lost my motivation to succeed in everything I've worked to accomplish thus far. However, my mission isn't complete. I still need to graduate and figure what I'm going to do with my life! Perhaps I should take into account what other successful ladies have done. Have a ambitious face for my career/ school life and a softer/ honest face for love life and friendships.

In my free time I've been practicing a lot of self meditation and have generated a lot of energy and focus back on myself. This made me realize I've been doing some things wrong in my life and have taken for granted other parts. I'm in love with the man in my life, but I'm lethally optimistic of our relationship. So much that I've been putting effort in for the both of us. Doing that has literally drained me physically and emotionally. Realizing this, however, has relieved so much weight off my shoulders. My focus now is to sit back and observe his actions and offer my 50% of the relationship. We're at a crossroads in our relationship and I hope he makes decided to step up his game. If I don't receive the love I know I deserve, then that'll be my sign to let it go, despite the heart ache.

" We need to teach our daughters the difference between. A man who flatters her and a man who compliments her. A man who spends money on her and a man who invests in her. A man who views her as property and a man who views her properly. A man who lusts after her and a man who loves her. A man who believes he is gods gifts to women and a man who remembers a woman was gods gift to man and then teach our sons to be that kind of man."